The one that got away

The one that got away, is my regret. I had this conversation with my cousin over Tday break about the one person you regret cutting out of your life. My cousin is single but the one lady that he still regrets dumping was one from his late twenties. He found her recently on Facebook. She is going through a divorce and now they are all of a sudden talking again after he just brought her up to me randomly. Is it meant to be? That is to be determined. The one that got away from me happened over a year ago. I wasn't in the right place at the time and he was too much in the right place. I was overwhelmed by his intensity because he knew exactly what he wanted, when I had no clue what it was that I wanted. I got incredibly scared because here I was this girl living with her parents, going to school full time, working part time, and having huge amounts of self-doubt. Then he was this beautiful, caring, kind, and highly intelligent individual who knew what he was doing, doing it, and going after it all. I freaked out. I cut him off and never looked back.....until now. Now I am looking back because I can understand where he was and wanted to be. I am now 28, educated, done with school, have a good job, and have a decent amount of self confidence. I know what I want and am not afraid of going after it. I think that scares people....guys in particular who are not sure where they are with their life. All I know is that I think it all boils down to timing. If you are in the right time to think about giving yourself to another, you will. If you are too scared about yourself and your own life you will hold back and not be yourself, nor give your self to another. I now regret being so mean to this individual....he only knew what he wanted. I did not. So what do I do now? Do I contact him or do I just leave it be? I wonder if things could be different with us now that I know more about what I want....