Thursday, April 30, 2009

Split Personality

Okay so there is Amy who is home and there is Amy who goes out. When I am home, I want to collect my thoughts, chill out, eat, watch tv, read, not talk, and just be in my own world. When I go out, I want to throw down drinks, talk it out, laugh, eat, dance, flirt, etc. When I am come home I am prepared to simply focus on me. When I go out I am prepared to focus on others. Who I am when I am home is in a lot of ways someone who is a lot different from that girl who goes out. Am I the only one like this? It seems as though I have been called out on how I act when I am home versus when I go out and I don't see how I can be the same person in both situations when one is personal and the other is social? If your roommate has guests over do you stop, sit down, and socialize when you might be coming home to just veg out in your own space and your own world? Sure saying hi is always polite but what if you just go straight to your room? Does this create a negative atmosphere? In any case what I have realized is that you reach a certain point where you can either continue to live with people or you don't b/c you just want to live in your own little world. Hence my decision to move, yet again, back in with my parents. I need to buy my own damn place and need the open door (thank you mom and dad!) to save. OR I am moving out of the area b/c I found a professional librarian position in another state and thus I will be making more and being able to afford my own place. Which ever comes first needless to say, I will always from here on out be living on my own.

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